À deux ans et demi

Many mothers share horrible experiences about the terrible two’s. But so far, I have mostly experienced only the terrifics of your second year. Maybe you have kept the worst for the remaining of the 6 months. 😉 If that’s the case, I will have to write about that too when it happens. Continue reading

My father

Today for the blogging101, I am to write for a specific person. Since I am writing for Vi to read, my posts are almost always addressed to him. This is also addressed to him but it’s about my father and things that I have learned from him and would maybe like to see in Vi someday.
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Back to School

As a kid, were you happy or anxious about going back to school? Now that you’re older, how has your attitude toward the end of the summer evolved?

In response to the daily prompt.

Dear Vi,

As a kid, Amma used to love going to school. I would be so bored by the end of the holidays that I would be waiting for school to reopen. I would have completed all the projects to be submitted on school opening, before the end of the 2nd week of the holidays. And then once we get the new books for the next year, I would start reading the English textbooks since it would mostly have stories and essays and things like that. Sometimes I would try reading the Hindi texts too.(Yes, I realise now, that I was kind of a nerd but never knew it then :P) Books of ither subjects like Science or Maths would not be opened or discovered because Amma used to liked to listen and learn.
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So whom should I marry?

One of your aunts asked me this hypothetical question just days after you were born. She asked me if you wanted to marry a girl who was physically disabled, would I let you? There was a story behind that question,  but that is no longer important. But the question is and so is the answer.
First I asked her why ask such an absurd thing? My son is hardly few days old, why would I be thinking of his marriage? But she pressed me to think and answer the question. I thought and thought. And replied that if you are happy with this person and are willing to be there for her, I would stand by your decision to marry her. I would surely talk to you about the various situations that could arise and if you are still confident, I wouldn’t say no.
But your aunt was not convinced,  she felt that I don’t know what I am talking about and that’s why this reply. I left it at that, thinking maybe there is something more, that I may not understand. Continue reading

And after 10 years

You wake up one day and realize you’re ten years older than you were the previous night. Beyond the initial shock, how does this development change your life plans?

The next one for the daily prompt

This post is not exactly an answer to the prompt, it is more like what came to my mind when I think what will be the situation after 10 years.

The first thing that comes to my mind when I think 10 years down the line is how you would be. Will you have a sister or brother to play with, to take care of, to fight with? Will you be an independent child or one who still wants his mom around all the time. I guess the former will be the case since you would be 12 years old. As of now its impossible for me to imagine you as a 12 year old, since for me you will always be my little boy. I hope as the years go by, I will also be able to let go slowly and steadily. I feel I am the clingy one rather than the other way round. But I assume all that will change.

Hopefully I would have taken up a part time job by then or start something of my own which I enjoy doing. Or maybe study a librarian course and be able to work in a library. Thats one of amma’s dreams. To own and work in a library. With lots of books, which will be lended out free of cost. It will be a kind of an open library where people can donate books too. I would have some sections in the library dedicated to children where they can come and read books, research about things they find interesting online or even just come and play games with new friends. Snacks may be provided too at a later stage of the development of the library. It would be more like a community library. Where the library runs with the support of the people in the community. There would be small sessions for personality development, awareness programmes, sessions that promote innovative thinking and so forth.

So if I lose 10 years of my life overnight, I guess I will just have to do these things quickly, thats all. It wouldnt change any life plan of mine since I have no plans for life. I live life as it comes everyday. No big dreams or desires or things to complete before I reach a particular age or stage. There are, of course, lot of things I wish to do before I die so as long as I dont die like 2 days after skipping those 10 years, I am pretty much ok. I would like to document your growth so maybe thats what I would miss out on, if I lost 10 years in a night.

Actually now it makes me not want to sleep 😦




My Mis-conception

Think Again

Tell us about a time you made a false assumption about a person or a place — how did they prove you wrong?

2nd attempt at Daily prompt

The first time I saw you, I thought ‘Oh, what a gentle human. What a sweetheart! How can anyone be so sweet and cute and charming all in one”. As the days went by, my opinion about you started to change. I realised you can be demanding, loud, out right cranky. Some days I was not prepared to see this new side of you. Some days you amazed me by doing things that I didnt know you were capable of. After 2 years and 5 months of seeing you for the first time, I know you a little better than I knew you when you were born.

I know a few things about you that I know I did not teach you:

1. You are a clean freak. You want all things clean and tidy. I have seen your face when there is something dirty on the floor. When we go to the bathroom to wash our legs, I see how agitated you see dirt, even if it is the dirt from your legs that we are washing away.

2. You are a kind soul. You dont mind sharing and you will keep doing that.

3. You know how to get your way and you know who is going to do what for you. In other words, you are already manipulative.

These are things I dint know when I saw you the first time on the 27th of March in 2012, when you were placed in my arms for the first time. The product of my conception was a mis-conception to me in the first few hours of my life as a mother 🙂

I know that as the years go by, I will see you in many more avatars. Looking forward to the journey with you, Vi.

Love you more than yesterday and less than tommorow (Borrowed from somewhere that I dont remember!)

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A picture of you taken a few hours after you were born.